Lonestar, Where Are You?

Have I told you?

This thing is happening.  This wildly life-altering amazing thing is happening.  No, trees are not screwing with us and our preservation brain functions.  This is so much better than that.

It's a mission.  My mission.

Anxiety, Stress, Happiness, Excitement, Stress, Joy, Worry, Stress.

Just some things I am feeling right now.  I love it, I hate it, I'm ready, I'm not.  And all of this in a half an hours time...


I still have a week of these emotions that are on an endless cycle on the stair climber.  Getting me weaker, but stronger, but fatigued...  One more week.


Excitement is the main emotion.  I cannot wait.  I want to be there.  I want to do this.  


But it's hard, since I'm not there yet.  I'm not in that mindset.  I still dwell on what I'm going to miss.  

I hear all of these wonderful things that are happening, and for a second I think that I can partake of the goodness, but then I realize that I have a job to do.  One of the most important things that I will ever do.

I don't doubt my decision, it's just hard to think of putting myself on hold.  I'm glad to do it, it's just a strange feeling.